I spent the weekend up in the mountains with family. Then today, I went up to the hill behind my parents' house where we got married around noon to kind of settle myself in, do some journal writing, and some crying. At 1:00, I started playing some of our music from the reception ending with the song that Jay sang to me at our wedding - "Ribbon in the Sky" by Stevie Wonder. I spread some of his ashes while the song played. I never really understood what a ribbon in the sky was supposed to mean, but I guess now it stands for Jay. Jay is now my ribbon in the sky.
Love you forever, my Jaybird.